Difficult Things

Yesterday was a difficult day. Come to think about it, this whole week has been difficult. I've been waking up each day this week with my chest hurting and extremely sore, more than each day prior. More than last week and the week before that. What does that mean? It means my stupid pregnancy hormones...

Two More Things

I have a Pinterest board full of quotes and the most recent post I made a week ago has been repinned a ton of times! Everyday I get notifications all day long of how many people repinned this pin: This up here ^ yes! Yes! I wish I had said this numerous times to someone...

To Die Myself…

Over a month and a half ago, our precious 4th pregnancy did not continue after almost 9 weeks. The baby stopped having a heartbeat and we didn't know till a week after. I think this is called a missed miscarriage. I've only done one blog post since because I think I haven't allowed myself to...

What To Say & Do For a Miscarried Family member or Friend

Well it's no secret by now, we saw baby #4's heartbeat at 8 weeks pregnant. We named this baby Olive because at 8 weeks it was the size of an olive. This baby made me crave olives badly. I never liked them this much before. The names I've given my angel babies are not names...

I’ll Always Love You Thing

I am still haunted by not seeing my baby's heart beating anymore at 8 weeks pregnant. It has been almost 2 and a half years ago since the tragedy of my first miscarriage. At any moment I can unintentionally relive the pain (and the guilt of the what-ifs I had done things differently) because something...